It's often the case that in times of great stress, you don't notice, until the stress is relieved. It's amazing how much relief there has been in the past 24 hours since writing the exam. Hopefully this is the charm. Now the waiting begins.
In the meantime, I signed up for some YouTube video subscriptions to keep my head in the game. One I signed up for was on Pathology; a series of vids on the basics of path as we learned in medical school by Dr. John R. Minarcik, MD. Should be some nice entertainment. More interesting was the automatic note sent from Dr. Minarcik, when you sign up. He writes:
1) Medical knowledge is an intrinsic right, NOT a commodity to sell.
2) Learning medicine should be a JOY, not an ordeal.
3) Everybody learns according to their own best style and convenience.
4) The Hippocratic oath issues of patient privacy, compassion, and FREE sharing of knowledge have to be honored.
5) Medical schools have to be in sync with board exams, or one of them has to go.
6) Medicine is too important to be tainted by corporate profiteering, government bungling, deceitful politics, or personal egos.
7) Exam and grade anxieties are the CANCERS of medical education. If your school admitted students which they feel need to be whipped, the SCHOOL has failed, not YOU!
From a medical school pathology professor. Profound to me. My new hero.