I'm nearing the end of the first 1/2 of study with the exam some weeks away. I'm gaining confidence but still not performing up to the demands of my motivation. The mini eureka experience I have daily help, but I know that there is much to do, more to come. It is, like life, a day to day existence and discipline to keep mentally, spiritually and physically healthy while continuing the self motivated effort to ingest and retain as much of this elephant, these pancakes, as I can. Some day soon, I'll have to regurgitate it back, on cue.
I wish people wouldn't keep telling me that this is the hardest test in the world. Or that they wouldn't be doing this if they were me. Neither is good motivation. I get it.