Confused

Every month of internship bring a change in venue, a new rotation to content with. New attendings, new clinic, new rules, new dress codes, new procedures and new confusions. No less so this coming month. No less than 4 emails from players on the new service. Each with completely contradictory information to the next.

I have no clue where to go on the first day, who to report to or what to wear. Sadly, this isn't the first time and more likely the result of a real problem of too many chiefs, too little communication between them and individual "kingdoms" of power, rules and processes that are not easily given up.

Uniform rules? Appropriate training and instruction? Clear failure and success paths? Adult educational theory integration? Humility? Compassion? Recognition of....? Oh never mind. This has been broken for way to long and those in charge don't know it's broke, have no motivation to fix it, and are way to ego inflated to even care.

So we just do what we have to do to survive it, and make sense of it long after we leave with our dysfunctions into the real world. Is it any wonder that the average physician leaves his first job within five years? When you leave residency this messed up about organizations, it's no wonder at all.

So I'll go to wherever the wind takes me on the first day, and I'll likely have to apologize to someone for my error, confusion and hysteria. Better to ask for forgiveness later than ask for help now. And besides the former is way more fun.