Any semblance of control in the process of medical education is purely accidental and largely a mirage. There is no control placed in the hands of the student. This is a great exercise in surrender, acceptance and releasing all vestiges of control.
Just wish it wasn't so arbitrary and carpricous bordering on abusive. Traditional medical education is as broken as the system itself. And that may be a whole chicken or egg first discussion all by itself.
I become more and more understanding of what Dr. Stead was fighting at Duke all along. It's an entrenched way of doing things that prevents any real progress without threats, rules, regulations and outside scrutiny. Medicine has brought this upon itself and I, along with my colleagues, are paying the price for 100's of years of bad habits.
I surrender, once again.
Let us not look back in anger or forward in fear, but around in awareness. 
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