I try. I really try. Every day it's a new start and an effort to work with what God gave me. Psalm 118:24 says, "THIS IS THE DAY THE LORD HAS MADE". I try to maximize all that is provided and cerebrally know that it's a blessing to have this opportunity and focus. But this system is broke and it won't fix today, tomorrow or for many, many months to come. By then I'll be gone.